Tuesday, October 3, 2017

A Post Where I List Things. People Like Lists.

The little gray rain cloud hovering over my life and dulling my otherwise vibrant and happy existence is back. It's been back for awhile but denial is a great and powerful force that I tend to welcome with open arms and a glass of mediocre scotch. (I'm on a budget now people. I can't afford the good stuff)

For anyone who has dealt with depression, you know it's completely illogical. Every time I can feel myself slowly toeing my way to the edge, I always, without fail, try to figure out the reason I'm feeling this way. With depression, there doesn't have to be a reason and more often than not, there isn't one.

In fact, I have so many things to be excited for right now. Let's list them starting by importance.
  1. I was recently introduced to Color Street. This means I can do my own nails for $7.00, it takes me less than 10 minutes AND THEY DON'T LOOK LIKE SHIT! Okay, maybe this shouldn't have taken my number one spot on the list but I was pretty excited. Just look! Fine. Whatever. Let's just move on.   
  2. After a year and a half and close to $20,000.00, we FINALLY got the permits, approval and all necessary hoop jumping out of the way so we can start building our home in the woods. I don't think I've ever written about this but quite awhile ago, E2 and I purchased some land in one of the canyons here in Utah where Erik plans to build a cabin and I plan to let Milo raise Rowan because it's a cabin. In the woods. With snow for the majority of the year. In the woods. 
  3. I started my own business. Not really something I ever thought about doing before. I don't even know where the idea came from but I got it in my head one day. Decided I wanted to do it. So I did it. And I have no idea what I'm doing. The more I learn about every aspect of it, the more I realize there is SO much to learn. But it's mine. And I love it. This is my little bidness if you want to check it out.
  4. IT'S OCTOBER!!!!! Which means it's Halloween. Which means it's totally okay to dress your loved ones up and the world totally can't call you a raging weirdo. 
  5. My little Ro-Boat is still the most amazing little human being in my entire world and he makes my heart want to explode when I look at him.  I mean...hello!! Sweet little babe! For the record, #5 is actually my #1. Obviously. 
When you get noodles plopped on your head and freeze for a solid 6 seconds because what...just...happened?

Squishiest little chef. 

Oh Baby! Go Baby!

So, obviously I have no right to be depressed about anything and besides, "Never tell your problems to anyone...20% don't care and the other 80% are glad you have them".
Thanks Lou Holtz. Nothing like a good kick to the face that only brutal honestly can offer.


  1. I can sooooooo relate...as you well know. At least we're in it together? Nah. It still sucks

    1. But that's why mermaid Christmas stockings were invented, right?

  2. STOP it with that cuteness. And might I mention how completely and undeniably envious I am of your future cabin in the woods?!

    1. We'll see how envious you are when I'm posting pictures of all of us neck deep in snow in the middle of June. ;)

  3. I get the same way - no inclination where it came from or why.

    I decided that it's like they say about alcoholism: You never get over it. You just learn to deal with it one day at a time.

    Enjoy the good things and remember you are not alone!

  4. Seems to me that a good cure for depression is going over that list of great stuff you have going on and staring at those pics of your super-cute baby! My boy has given my life so much meaning and perspective. I get depressed here and there for sure, but then this kid makes me laugh. He makes everyone around him happy. Life's good Vapid. Life's good.

  5. Are you going to have a happy lil feral family in the woods?

  6. A few things:

    a) there is nothing wrong with fabby glitter nails being number one in ANYTHING.
    b) Your kid is so damn cute and is that a hint of red hair like mommy?
    c) Your business is AWESOME, your photos are wonderful and how come I had no idea you did this? Pfff. I love it! And as someone who also has their own business I don't know what I'm doing either, so hey, let's celebrate!
    d) Depression is a c word and it needs a bullet. I hope you're doing okay! Going now to look at your photos, because IMPRESSIVE!

    PPS I am ignoring your house in the woods because JEALOUSY.
    PPPS I think that's all...