Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Love At First Sight

Ive met someone new.  And I'm in love.  I've never believed in love at first sight.  Always thought those people who did believe were delusional or just loved the idea of love at first sight. You can't really love someone without actually getting to know them first.  Loving someone has as much to do with personality as it does their physical existence.  Love at first sight isn't a real thing.

I was wrong.



I'm really REALLY  in love and I'm desperate that this person have the chance to reciprocate my love.  There are so many ways for this to go wrong.  And it has gone wrong, for many women I know.  It left them heartbroken and despondent and I'm finally in a position to really understand the anguish they must have felt.  I hope with everything I am that I'll never have to find out first hand but it's proving difficult for me, a pessimist and cynic, not to dwell on the negative possibilities.

Here's the thing.  I'm 39.  A few years ago I'd given up on ever experiencing this kind of love in this lifetime.  My life just didn't turn out the way I had imagined when I was younger and that was okay.  I'd come to terms with it and was pretty content with my life.

But then.  I saw him.  He doesn't know who I am yet but he's changed everything for me.


And I am in love.



30 comments:

  1. AHHHH CONGRATS! As I was reading this, I was thinking "Is this going to be about a puppy? it's probably going to be about a puppy." And then the twist - baby!

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    1. Oooohohhh!!! How amazing would it be if I gave birth to an adorable fuzzy puppy! Fingers crossed.

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  2. Congrats!!! How exciting!

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  3. Whoa!! Congratulations Dawn!!

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  4. Oh I am so SO happy for you and your little love! Truly!
    And this is a wonderful, beautifully written piece.
    Can't wait to meet him!

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    1. Thanks Dawn, and me too! Except I can wait awhile longer. I'm not ready!

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  5. Congratulations!!! How wonderful and exciting. That is a really precious post!!!

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  6. Ahhhh!!! I really can't articulate my thoughts better than that, but I'm so, so happy for you and your boy. I'm sure girls are cool too, but I can't even tell you how much I've loved being a boy mom 💙💙💙

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    1. I was hoping for a boy and started crying over the phone when the nurse gave me the results of the blood test. While I was at work. Cause I'm a professional.

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  7. You will fall head over when you hold him. Trust me.

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  8. :):):) Best post I've read in a long time! So exciting! Boys and their moms have such a special relationship... I 'm really, really happy for you. Try not to stress!

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    1. Thank you Jessica! The further along I'm getting, the better I'm feeling about things.

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  9. in your age things become very clear and i am sure he deserve your love dear but i think you should let him know about your feelings and then see what he thinks or says about it ,wishing you Bestest of luck ,being in love is a spiritual experience which gives physical and mental stability too ,may all goes well with your dreams and desires

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    1. Thank you Baili. I'm supposed to meet him for the first time in November so I'll let him know my feelings then. :)

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  10. Congratulations! Best wishes for a healthy pregnancy.

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  11. This is a pretty drastic endeavor to get out of Burning Man again this year.

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    1. Yeahhh. Great job me on avoiding a place because nudity makes me uncomfortable. Only to look forward to the experience of having my lady bits out there for anyone meandering past to see.

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  12. Talk about a plot twist at the end...this made me smile with such joy :) I am incredibly happy for you - and you deserve it.

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  13. I am really excited for you. I believe he knows you, too. He knows your heartbeat, your feelings. He knows you like no one else ever has.

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    1. ANNIE!!! I've had enough with the crying already. What are you trying to do to me??

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  14. I'm 39 and having my first kid in September. I'll need a pen pal to get through this thing. Let's be buddies. I'm scared out of my flipping mind about this whole thing because if you've read any of my blogs it's easy to tell that I'm no grown up. Anyway, keep in touch and more importantly, congratulations!

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    1. Solidarity my friend! And yes, I have read your blog and I concur. You are no grown up. Probably why I read your blog.

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  15. Well there's no going back now, is there. :-) Congratulations. I'm sure he'll be happy to meet you too in a few months. All in due time.... You're going to be a wonderful mother. Its something I can just tell

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    1. HA! Yeah, it's a little late now but I wouldn't turn back if I could. Thank you for your sweet words. We shall see...

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